Prodigal Son

Yesterday, I went with my old fren from work. It's been a couple months since we hanging out, and to our surprise, she's pregnant 16 weeks (4 month, more or less). Ahhh.... we're so happy for her. I'm happy for her. Like ancient said, Every Pregnant Lady looks Glowing. And She Is. She's very glowing. LOL.

We talked for 3 hours in this Chinese Restaurant "Duck King". Can You Imagine that? After 2 hours, the waiter started coming around our table, pretending to check is we want order something or just to refill our drink. I'm sure in their minds "Oh Gosh, It's been 2 hours and they still no showing sign to go" LOL. They just don't know, my head and my stomach already screaming "I'm Hungry, Can we just go somewhere else". I'm not too keen on Chinese food. And, I'm bored. But, due to my hope, my fren ordering another dessert. Aww... Poor Tizi. Another hour to endured.

One of Stories that she told us is about her boss. Her boss has 2 sons and a daughter. The daughter just celebrate her engangement party in one of the expensive Hotel here. It costs her boss maybe $100,000. Wow. And The Prodigal Son, his oldest son.She told us his son doesn't work at all, just playing around everyday. And Why Is That???

Wanna know his answer :

"Why Am I bother to work? If I work for Father I get $3,000. If I'm not, I still get $3,000 too. So, Why Am I bother to work? "

WOW. Wow. He gets allowance US $3,000 every month from his father. I'm sooo.... jealous. But more to think about it, If I'm that rich, maybe I turn up to be bad person. hehehe... I'm gonna be ignorant, spoiled boy. I'm sure of it. No Doubt. hehehe... So, better not to be that rich. But Still, I want half of it. LOL. :: Tizi Still Greedy :: with $1,500, I can do a lot of things. I can do Charity. I can help poor people. hahaha... so many things I wanna do, but It's all in my imagination.

Pheww... Think about it more... I need me to find some Sugar Daddy. LOL.

But without all that money, I can still be a good boy, a good man, someone that my parent can be proud of.

So, Tizi... Be A Good Boy.

Jakarta Fair 2009

Yay... I was so exciting this time every year, between June - July. First, it's summer time. Hooray! The sun always shine and no more rainy days. LOL.

Second, There's Jakarta Fair. I always love Jakarta Fair since I was little boys. There's alot of booth, game, food, and of course Sale. hehehe...

Today, I went to JF (Jakarta Fair) with my friend Ms BB. Aahh... I was so exciting, there's a lot of food to eat. LOL. I feel like I wasting my 2 days work out. hehehe... but, that's ok, I can still work out tomorrow and burn this calories.

It also brings back a lot of memories.

We ate a lot till Ms BB said "I can't eat anymore. My stomach feels like gonna explode". LOL. So true. We couldn't barely walk. LOL. Full stomach and aching feet.

So, here's some picture I taken :








So, I Was So Exciting....

Flirting at Mall (Weird Day - Part. 2)

Finally I arrivedat Plaza Indonesia, and Finally dinner (Aarrrgghhh !!! I’m so hungry, cause I didn’t eat much at lunch). We had dinner at Pancious, ughh… the food is so good, I feel like I’m having orgasm, hihihi… naughty. I ate chicken & spinach penne, and for dessert, CoBana pancake and waffle with Vanilla ice cream (yummm… feel like I’m cumming. LOL)

The second weird things, I met a lot of people I didn’t’t expect it. First, I met my best fren childhood friends, I didn’t quite know him well, but we talked a bit.

After that, we went to Grand Indo, because they’re having this big sale at Gramedia Bookstore. (Yay!!! Feel like I’m in heaven) I want to buy a lot of books, - cooking book, magazines, dictionary, travel book, etc – hehehe… I’m such a nerd.

I was looking at photo frame (‘Cause I want to hang my picture at living room, so everytime people coming to my house, they will see my picture. LOL, such narciss person), I realized there was this man staring at me and he smiling at me. He’s not my type, so I didn’t respond.

But he kept smiling, and suddenly he approached me, “ r u still cutting your hair in Gajah Mada or Sarinah???

??? So I said “ No!!!”

“Didn’t u remember me?”

“No, I’m sorry”

He looked hurt, and suddenly I remember, he used to work at salon I visited to cut my hair when I was in high school. LOL. Weird, huh. How can I remember? It’s almost ten years ago, how can this guy still remember me. Dunno…

Then I meet my fren in college, we just say hii…

Last, when I was in magazine rack, I saw this one man, he didn’t smile at me, he just kept looking at me, so I thought maybe he’s not interested in me. After a while, I just realized, this one man made suspicious move, he just kept brushing his body at me. LOL. The place was crowded, so no one noticed it. But he still didn’t smile at me, we just staring at each other. So, okay, maybe he’ into me.

I move into another section, paperback section (Uh, I love romance paperback.) just to test him if he’s following me. Okay, he’s following me.

Suddenly It struck me, straight into my brain ---- “I don’t know how to flirt”

Oh, shit, I really don’t know how to flirt. I never done that. Usually guys/girl into me made the first move. But now, he’s being gentleman, he’s waiting my response, he wants to know if I’m interested to. Ow, Come On. Do something, man. Smile kek, or just say hii.., or even brushing tip of my hand, so I can smile to you. But he’s just waiting… waiting…

Eeeuuurrrgghhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!

Like I said, “I don’t know how to flirt”, so I didn’t know what to do. My mouth felt dried. And I can’t even smile. I just standing there like idiot statue. (stupid… stupid… stupid Tizi).

He’s tired waiting for me, and finally he walk away.

I realized, maybe I should give it a try, so I look around, but It seems I couldn’t find him anywhere.

Aaarrrgggghhhhhhh !!!!!


So, I Quess I Miss My Chance…….

Weird Day - Part. 1

Today it’s been a weird day. I took taxi which driver is a pimp. (weird, huh). I pick up my brother at Citraland, and we want to go to Plaza Indonesia because I want to have dinner at Pancious, so we took this taxi at Citraland. Later, not far, the driver got call from his friend, and he talked loudly (I mean, very loudly, he almost shouted), so I listened his conversation..

He said to his friend “Yeah, yeah.. I got this pretty girl, she’s only 19, and she’s local. Only 1 million rupiah. After we paid the girl her share, we both split the rest.”

While I listened his, my brain shouted “Oh My God, Pimp!!!”

I don’t have offense to Pimp, but I just watched the movie “Shuttle”. That movie scared the hell out of me, it’s story about 2 girls and 2 boys hitched a ride at airport shuttle. So, the driver a little (hehe.. not little, but very much) psycho. He killed the boys, and terrorize the girls. At the end, I found his motives was kidnapped the girls and sold the girl to Middle East as Slave. (OH MY GOD!!!) That was scary.

So, back to my story, after he shut his phone he took wrong street,(Oh, shit!), he should be turn left, but he didn’t. He said he didn’t know the street (Or maybe, he pretended to be), I got a little paranoid, (not little, but veryyyy……) What if he want to kidnap Tizi, because Tizi looks cute and innocent ??? LOL !!!

The weird things is, he then said he didn’t know the street, If he turn back, it will cost me much, and it’s my loss, so he rather drop me off. Huh??? (He want to drop me???). ‘Cause that movie still playing in my mind, my rational brain said, I rather walk than ride with this driver. So, he dropped me and my brother at side of street.

It turns out to be bad decision too. There’ no more taxi, and I standing at side of street with many men staring at me. (Yeahh… yeahhhh…. I know.. I know.. Tizi looks cute and innocent and charming like little prince. Hihihi…) What if they want a little piece of me??? Awww….

And, finally my ride coming, saving me from those hunger men. Hehehe…


To Be Continued…

BORED OUT OF MY MIND !!!

2 weeks ago had been a really great week. So many things had happened. But last week, it'd been suck. I had nothing to do, all week I'm just sitting in front of my computer, playing games, facebook, etc. It's sooo... boring. I'm sooo bored out of my mind. Gua ga tau musti ngapain, ga ada kerjaan yg musti dikerjain, bener2 membosankan.

So, saturday I decided buat dinner sama temen - temen gua di Plaza Senayan. Sambil nunggu temen2 gua dateng, kayak biasa, gua shopping dulu (hehehe... Tizzz loves shopping. very much.)

Abis puas beli baju, Eeuuurrrrggghhhh !!!! mengesalkan. Gua telat beli tu baju, uda ga ada size ukuran gua. (Damn!), gua naek ke food courtnya tuh, disana tuh everywhere I saw, all people around me, they were holding hands. (It sucks being single, I feel so alone). I'm sooo... envious.

It made me realized something, without my friends, I'm alone in this world (Well, except my family, of course there' always my family. Family Counts First), It just besides my friends, I don't have anyone to share my life with. It just makes me sad. I never had thought like this, because there' always my friends hanging around me. So, I just realized how lonely my life been. I feel so empty.

I wanna have someone to share my life with, to experience new things together, holding hands together. (Guess I'll have to wait) ---- Poor Tizi

Anyway, so today I went To Grand Indo, I saw cute couple. (Well, to be exact two muscle guys. Hmm... Loves muscle guys, especially the one with big chest, so I can play with it. hihihi... naughty Tizi). So, the one --> tall with big muscle, (I guess he spent all his day in gym), the other one --> small/short (hehehe... just like me) with muscle too.

After I saw them, I just thinking... hmm... I wanna have someone like that. Of course the tall one, not the short one. (Why Can't I Have Someone Like That??? Guess I have to start going to gym. hihihi... )


So, Hope This Week Will Be Interesting

Tizi Tizzz

My Issues Coming Again !!!

Errghh. As you all know, I have fear towards relationship. Now, It's coming back and haunting me. I don't know what's wrong with me, but surely there's something wrong.

Since I was a little boy (Hmm... Elementary school, maybe) I always thought there's no happy ending in this world. There' no couple who will last longer till the end. Eventually they are gonna break up. There' no married couple who last till the end, eventually they are gonna divorced too. Such a cliche. I know, I was naive. I don't know what I was thinking back then. I even made promise myself that I'm not gonna married and I'm gonna live alone till I'm old. (Arrghhh...Amit50x. Now, I'm really really regretted it. I wanna married too someday. I don't know what the hell was I thinking back then. It's not healthy for a little cute boy for thinking like that)

When I was getting older, I starting realized that I have a problem. Everytime a boy or girl (yes, I had experienced both) come on to me and saying that they like me, I starting to panic (Strange, right ? I should be happy, because someone like me, but I panicked). It's true. I starting made distance with them. I even made them hated me.

:: tsk.. tsk.. very cruel, Tizi ::

It still continue until now.

I don't know what I'm afraid of. I think my brain has its own thinking. Too much thinking and too much "What If..."
What if I break his heart...
What if he's cheating on me...
What was I gonna say if I wanna break up...
and there' still so many What If...
I know I know, it's not healhty, but I couldn't help it.

Recently, there's this guy. I know he likes me. He said he wanna be friend with me. But I know eventually he's gonna ask a date with me. As I said earlier, now I'm having anxiety and panic attack. ( lol... ) It's funny, really...

I know there's probability we end up as couple If I let it. (I said If... , people). But my heart feel like there' something wrong. (It always like that).
Maybe he's not the one.
Maybe I'm not in love with him.
You see... there' so many maybe.

Usually, everytime time when we start dating, either I push him away, or I'm looking all his fault. Now, I'm looking his fault. You see.. my problem with this guy is his age. He's younger than me. (Not that I'm against age difference). But come on, he's not even 20. Maybe, in western culture, he' considered old enough and mature. But, in my culture (Eastern culture), he's still a kid. Come on, he's 19 (what he got to know about life). And he just send me message that pissed me off. Errghh...

Why Can't I get older men (Not too old, a few years older than me would be better), someone who can take care of me and of course has Financial Securities (That would be bonus, hehehe...)

So, in the end...
I Think I'm Not Ready.

But, my friend told me that I was too chicken. She said I'm not gonna be ready until I'm old and bald if I was always waiting for Mr. Right. Is that true?

So, What Do You Think I Should Do ?
Am I Wrong ?
Am My Heart Lying To Me ?

Tizi Tizzz

I'm BACK !!!

Last week I went to Sentosa Island. It's sooo... beautiful at night. That's my picture at bird park. I called it Tree Of Wish, because you can hang your wish (of course written in the paper) in the tree. I came too late, around 9.15 p.m, and it's already closed and I didn’t bring any paper, so I didn’t get the chance to hang my wish. Huh. I’m so sad. ??? What Is My Wish ??? There’s so many wish, and you can only get one. Which one you desire most ? I want good hubby. Of course my definition of good hubby, that means, he should be handsome, good looking, rich, manly, romantic, someone who can take care of me, (because, it is nice sometime to be the one taken care of ), only loves me, because I don’t wanna he’ cheating with somebody else. And ohh… no violence towards me.

:: tsk…tsk…tsk… very very greedy, Tizi ::

Hehehe… Greedy, am I ? Hey, a boy can dream.

Even though I didn’t get the chance to hang my wish, but I still got the picture. Hehehe…

Singapore is very amazing. Very clean, and very beautiful, especially during night. Every mall in Singapore has their own unique and characteristics. Yeah.. Yeah.. I know I know I’m a mall boy.

I went to Suntec City Mall, and in there I found there’s Fountain Of Wealth. It’s awesome. You must touch the water, make a silent wish, and you walk around the fountain three times. Of course I made my wish. Hihihi…And in there also there’s Chinese Horoscope for every shio. My shio is Rat. When I read my horoscope. I was jumping up and down, because It said “ For those singles, your romance luck is at its best this year “ Yeahhhh !!! I’m soooo… happy. Finally.

And later, I almost cry, because It said “ Family luck is very strong this year for the rats. There will be continuous good news like marriages, new borne, and achievement of family members. Cherish the good moments. Families that stick together, last longer. “ It’s true, because my sister just married last month. And if the Horoscope its true, that means I gonna have a nephew or niece. And I’m gonna be uncle. THANK YOU GOD ! I’m really grateful for everything that you’ve been given me. Thank You God !

Later, when I came home, I told my mom about the Horoscope, and I was crying while I told my mom about the good news, that maybe, she’s gonna be grandma. I’m so ashamed that I was crying in front of my mom, but Hey, I couldn’t help it. I’m soooo…Happy.

So, Singapore, you’ve really made impression in my heart and I won’t forget it. When I come back, I will bring my hubby so we both can enjoy beautiful city night together, and we will spend the night at Siloso beach and resort. That’s my promise to myself. Hope It Will Come Soon. Hehehe…

Tizi Tizzz

BRAVE, EVERYONE !

Everyone said " Life is complicated ". But I think Life is scary, well.. maybe complicated too (If you have many problems). Time keeps moving fast. I feel like time keeps running (very... very... very fast) and leaving me behind. Without you realized, you're getting older... older... and older. And it's scared the hell out of me (I know... I know... I sound pathetic). But it's true, I'm really scared getting older, because there're so many things I wanna do, and there's so much a little... little... time.

One thing I hate about myself (well, actually, there' so many things I hate about myself, but I'll keep it to myself for now. hehehe...) is I'm not confident person, whether in life or love. And I'm not independence person. (Hate that). I'm pretty much depend with my family and my friends. (I know I should getting on my own feet now I'm 24 years old), but I guess I need some security in my life (Boy needs a little security in his life, what's wrong with that,... but I guess it's wrong when you're older and you're not a boy anymore).

I guess I know what is my problem, I don't have faith and trust in myself. That's why I'm not very confident.

Now, I decided to put stop on it. :: Tizi, now you're getting older, you should be more wiser, and mature. You can't act like a boy forever. :: Shit. I really hate the truth. I decided it's time to be Brave, and confident, and put trust in myself. I can do what other people can do as long as I put trust and faith in myself.

I'm gonna be brave, towards life, love, and everything that's coming to me (Even though I'm scared. hihihi...)

EVERYONE, BE BRAVE ! (Tizi wants the best for you. So, put a little faith and trust in yourself. Don't be chicken like Tizzz)

http://www.megaupload.com/?d=HD5NYOYB
(Song from Jennifer Lopez called Brave. Hope you enjoy it)


So, It's time to be Brave.
I Wanna be Brave.


Tizi Tizzz

Tragedy Shirt : If Shirt Could Talk...

Starts with 2 months ago when I went shopping with my fren. (What Can I Say... I love shopping). Setelah dengan penuh semangat, well to be exact..., setelah kecapean dan perjuangan keras, ::Gimana ga perjuangan, bayangin aja, satu mall udah gua jelajahin, naik ampe ke lantai paling atas trus turun lagi ampe ke paling bawah, naik lagi, and so on... hihihi. ampir semua stores uda gua masukin::

I found my perfect shirt (well, at least that's what I thought when I bought it).

Bajunya warna putih, (No. 3 of my favorite colour), desainnya simple ga rumit, hanya beberapa huruf di tengah2 baju, V neck with 4 buttons. Simple and Elegant, just like that. And I look damn hot wearing this shirt. Uuh..., gua lupa bilang, bajunya tipis lho, so my nipples really showing(ngejiplak). Hot, right???

Bajunya tinggal 2, yang satu ada kotoran kecil (very very tiny) di bagian bawah bajunya. Yang satu lagi ada kerutan di bagian lehernya. So, gua milih yang ada kerutan di lehernya. (That's when the tragedy began).

Di rumah, gua dengan senengnya cobain lagi tu baju sambil ngaca di kamar mandi. :: I look really damn hot. Yay... :: Accidentally tu baju kena cipratan air ketika gua lagi cuci tangan. Pas gua lagi gantung tu baju, gua baru sadar OH MY GOD !!! sablonan tulisan huruf di baju gua luntur. OH MY GOD !!! gua rasanya mau pingsan saat itu (That's when I knew I made the wrong choice, milih sih kerutan leher drpd yg ada kotoran kecil) Damn.

Tragedy still continuing...

After washing nih baju (Twice), akhirnya lunturan nya hilang juga. Bikin gua kaget aja. Besokannya, gua baru mau bilang ke Bibi yang lagi gosok baju gua supaya ati - ati, ga tau nya dia lagi gosok baju gua. Aaaaarrrrgggghhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!! ga taunya gosokan bajunya terlalu panas dan benang baju gua yang tadinya warna putih jadi item kena gosong. OMG !!! Untung baru sedikit.

Finally after a lot of suffering, gua pake juga ni baju 3 weeks ago, hehehe... gua dengan manisnya muterin satu mall, with my very charming smiles of course, sampe kaki gua ga sanggup jalan, hihihi...

Setelah penuh dengan tragedy, gua sendiri ah yang cuci ni baju. Safe. Sialnya, besokannya pas gua liat, OMG, baju gua kena lunturan lagi. Kali ini warna orange di Leher V nya, n di sekitar bahu dan lengan. OMG!!!

Kenapa warna orange? ternyata pas dijemur, ni baju ditempel ama my underwear yg warna orange (Hey, I love my underwear especially the sexy one dengan warna yg HOT).

Akhirnya dengan pemutih baju dan a lot of effort, sebagian besar lunturan ilang juga. Thanks God, I thought.

Esokan nya lagi, another tragedy still coming...

Pas gua liat, sablonan huruf baju gua rontok. Aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kenapa ini terus terjadi???

Ternyata si Bibi ga masuk n digantiin anaknya yg ga tau kalo gosokan yg terlalu panas bisa bikin rontok sablonan baju gua. Hik.. Hik.. Hik..

That's it. I give up. Nih tadinya yg perfect shirt harus masuk museum.

So, that's goes to back of my closet.

So, If shirt could talk,... he will cry all night long with me, and he will ask me why am I so cruel to him. And he will ask me why as his master, I'm not protecting his ?

I'm Sorry

I'm really really sorry.

You may not believe this story, but it is true. I'm telling you...

Tizi Tizzz

Kecil - kecil tapi maut

The Story starts saat gua jalan2 ama temen gua. Lagi jalan2 eh gua liat ni emping manis. Mm-hmm.. gua ga bisa nahan godaan ni emping. :: Wah, enak juga ni makan ni emping sambil nonton my favorite movie :: Akhirnya gua memutuskan beli 2 ons d ni emping manis 3 hari yang lalu.

Gua selalu suka ama emping manis yang kecil - kecil dari dulu. Tiap kali makan ni emping, gua selalu inget masa kecil gua. Ni emping punya arti tersendiri buat gua. Very nostalgic. When I was a little boy, ( very cute, with my bald head, hihihi... ) :: Hey, I'm 4 years old. Of Course I have bald head :: nyokap n bokap gua selalu ngajak gua nonton bioskop di gedung chandra (Now, it's been a long gone). Nah, sebelum nonton, nyokap gua selalu beli ni emping manis buat camilan makan di bioskop. So, tiap kali makan ni emping, gua selalu inget ama ni memories. It brings back many many sweet memories. Oh-oh Don't get me wrong, Just because I told this story, that doesn't mean something happened with my parents. My parents both my father and my mother still alive (very healthy and very very active, Thanks GOD).

2 hari yang lalu, gua uda siap - siap, nyalain Dvd player, n gua uda duduk dengan manis di ranjang gua sambil megangin ni emping manis. Ooh, ni emping enak banget. I couldn't stop eating it. I want More... MORee... MOREEE...

So, gua tetep makan ni emping dengan rakusnya.

Kraukkk !!! Kraukkk !!!

Kreekk !!!

What's that !!!

Damn, ga taunya ni emping nyangkut n kena gusi gigi gua. Ni emping biar kecil - kecil tapi tajem. Gua buru - buru minum air putih. Akhirnya gua stop tu ritual makan emping sambil nonton manis.

Besokannya pas gua bangun tidur, gua selalu mulai ritual bangun tidur gua dengan minum air putih segelas (Yes, I'm a good boy) kok sakit yah mulut gua. Gua minum lg segelas, yup It hurts so much. Ga taunya, ni emping bukan aja bikin gusi gua sakit, tapi ni emping juga melukai kerongkongan gua. Aaaaahhhhhhh !!!!!!!!

Now, setelah 2 hari, kerongkongan mulut gua masi sakit. hik... hik..

Ni emping merusak kenangan indah gua aja.

Tizi Tizzz